Is it okay that I really don't know what to do? Which way to turn, or whom to trust along my journey? Is it okay that my heart is torn between myself and my other self? Is it okay that friendship doesn't seem to hold the same meaning it once used to? Kind of like the friends are there... but where is the value that lies within the soul that keeps one another together? Is it okay not to know? Is it okay to wonder what life would be like without ... ? Is it okay to fantasize about losing your mind and never returning? Is it okay not to know who to choose for this life? What if I make the wrong choices? What if who I choose is wrong? How do I know? Is it okay to feel worthless when you have everything around you? Is it okay.

My heart goes out to the homeless on nights like tonight.

SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO HIT MY MOM IN THE FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i don't expect anyone to understand, because you don't know how horrendous she can BE !!! ugghhhhhhhhhhh take me away.

So I am going to post because I realize it's not really about who comments, but how i am able to relieve myself of the burdens i feel that i have at the moment.

so my dog is pretty much dying. and this, let me tell you, is a terrible, HORRIBLE thing that i don't want to deal with. my dog... is my world. it sounds soo  lame but he was the one thing i was always really excited to come home to. i love him and anyone who knows me well, KNOWS this. Sam is my life and i love him and he's dying1!! and i really don't know how to handle it. it's really upsetting me, moreso than i figured it would, and i will just bust out crying during random times through out the day. of course i'm not bawling, but tears happen and it sucks. i duno. i'm just not realy do deal with this at all and i can't handle something being thrown off whack right now. i have finals. and three more papers due. and this is a very bad time. i know there's never a good one, but this is exceptionally bad.

as i just stated... i'm SUPER stressed because of finals. i just have so many papers and i love to procrastinate so it's super lame and i wind up writing 3 papers in 2 days. ick.

good news is my sorority is going well and i am giong to see my dearly missed boyfriend in less than three weeks. well just about three weeks actually. and JENNIFER!! and we will play apples to apples. and it will be fun. and i will see JILLIAN! yaay. i just have to get through these next two weeks.

pray for me. pleaase.

noooo one comments. this has become old. (not the no comments. this general idea)

i think i'm breaking from xanga.com for a while.